By the time I was finishing my last semester at The University of Tulsa, I felt like my life had even more questions than when I had started college.
I knew my life had purpose, but I was still trying to figure out what that was.
Late July of 2005 I had moved out to Provo, Utah and started a graduate assistantship. Tulsa had an outstanding athletic training program with excellent professors, so in addition to having all these life questions, I had a really difficult time adjusting to the new program I started working with.
I probably stepped on some toes, hurt some feelings and left a broken heart.
With all the stress I was allowing to affect me, I was getting sick…really sick. I was eating healthy and exercising, so I was stressing about being sick.
Now imagine me getting chewed out by the director of Sports Medicine, twice.
I desperately wanted to be where He wanted me to be and Do what He wanted me to do…why did my life have so many trials?
I don’t feel like it was just a coincidence that I repeatedly heard the hymn, “I’ll Go Where You Want Me To Go (LDS Hymn #270)” during church meetings/activities.
I am a prayerful person, always have been and I felt really strongly about being where I was and I didn’t understand why. Throughout all these experiences I had some really profound moments and met some very lovely people. Although there were many times that I felt alone (even with a roommate in the next room, I was learning how to be a better person. I was learning how to trust the Lord. I was being refined.
With hindsight, I can look back and appreciate what I went through and actually feel grateful.
Ezra Taft Benson once said (and I’m sure countless others) that, “the great test of life is obedience to God. The great task of life is to learn the will of the Lord and then do it. The great commandment of life is to love the Lord (teachings of ETB).”
I hope that this year I can continue to do my best in following the counsel of President Benson and although trials come, they always come, I hope that I can continue to look to God and live.
I hope by doing that, that I will be successful in achieving my dreams.